"Cette douleur ineffable qu'est l'incision profonde,
"This ineffable pain deep incision,
Ne représente désormais qu'une banale ecchymose
Now represents a common wound
Face à mon mal cérébral chaque jour croissant.
Facing my brain hurt daily increasing.
Je pensais me vider de mes malheurs, de mes tourments,
I thought I empty myself of my misfortunes, my torment,
Mais chaque jour une cicatrice de plus se formait autour de
But each day one more scar appeared around
mon c? ur,
my C? ur,
sans pour autant, m'apporter de réponse...
without granting me any answer ...
Je n'ai pu combattre pour cet idéal, cette forteresse,
I could not fight for this ideal, this fortress,
J'ai perdu tout espoir face à ce grand édifice,
I lost all hope to face this great edifice,
empiriquement inaccessible...
empirically unreachable ...
Jour après jour, ma raison disparu, laissant place au
Day after day, my reason disappeared, giving way to
désespoir,
despair,
Et à la chute de l'empire pour lequel j'aurais tant voulu
And the fall of the empire for which I wanted so much
combattre.
combat.
Je préfère mourir plutôt que de voir cette société
I would rather die than see this company
Prendre la forme que j'ai toujours rejetée...
Take the shape I have always rejected ...
Je n'ai d'autres solutions que celle de partir seul,
I have other solutions than from single,
volontairement esseulé,
voluntarily lonely,
Plutôt que de rester ici bas, à me morfondre dans mon
Instead of staying down here, moping in my
échec."
failure."
(Translation)
(Translation)
(Death before Dishonour)
(Death before Dishonour)
This ineffable pain -the deep incision-
This bread -the ineffable deep incision-
Now only represents a common wound
Now only Represents a common wound
Compared to my ever-growing brain damage
Compared to my ever-growing brain damage
I thought I would get emptied of my wretchedness and
I thought I would get emptied of my wretchedness and
torments
torments
But each day a new scar appeared around my heart
Purpose Each Day a New Appeared scar around my heart
Yet without granting me any answer...
Yet without me Granting Any answer ...
I couldn't fight for this ideal, for this fortress,
I couldn't fight for this ideal, for this fortress,
I lost all hope in front of this huge edifice, empirically
I lost all hope in front of this huge edifice, empirically
unreachable...
unreachable ...
Day after day my reason was disappearing,
Day after day my reason Was disappearing,
Leaving room for despair
Leaving room for despair
And for the fall of the empire for which
And for the fall of the empire for qui
I would have so much liked to fight.
I would-have so much liked to fight.
I prefer to die instead of witnessing society
I prefer to die INSTEAD of Witnessing society
Take the shape I had always rejected...
Take the shape I Had always rejected ...
I have no other solution than that of going away,
I have no solution --other Than That of going away,
voluntarily alone,
Voluntarily alone,
Instead of staying down here, lamenting for my failure...
Instead of staying down here, lamenting for my failure ...
(Translated from french by Aries)
(Translated from french by Aries)